shit shit shit

So, I had the day off from work, which gave me free time, which obviously I can't handle responsibly. I started playing around with Google calendar, and thought "it would be really cool if I could syncronize this with my Outlook calendar." Yes. Wouldn't that be cool. Unfortunately for me, I sort of succeeded. I made my Outlook calendar syncronize with my *blank* Google calendar. Everything from the past four years is gone, along with several months of the future. Did I make a backup beforehand? No. Are all of those appointments in the deleted items folder? No, of course not. I think I'm just out of luck. I feel kind of sick.